
If there’s something positive, it’s that I had enough money to pay the rent.
Next good thing is that I know that I’ll get paid a half a month for a work we have to start doing about now. And I’ll get paid I guess on february next year. But This is my choice completely. I chose to go and study dance and I chose not to find other job. And hey, it really nice to be able to do and work with dance and get paid, even if it is just a half a month.
No one has contact me about those study hours I offered, and it’s been two weeks now, even more. I am very dissappointed. I asked on the aplication that they would contact me even if the answers is no, so I would have some clarity. But nothing, really annoying.
I understand that I should write something smart, concerning the whole world and so on, or at least some specific that some one would have some reason to read this. But wtf I can say. Everything’s the same, we all should know this (eventhough I know we don’t).
“Everything and everyone and in the end we all are one, truth shall not be denied”
– SDRE on The Rising Tide
Listen to sunny day real estate.
This conclusion leads us to difficult situation. Everything’s the same so what’s the point. We have a tendency to look out for points. Point, reason, reasoning. There’s no point. You can make one for your self if you want. Go ahead.
If I have understood correctly there is a law in physics which says roundabout that the amount of energy is set. Energy can and will change it’s form but it will not dissappear. Like in light bulbs, the energy (electricity) given, transforms into light and warmth and those will transform into something else. The amount of energy in the universe (what ever that may be) is set. Everything’s the same.
So why do you live your life?
What’s the point?
Do you really think that there is things like “must” and “have to”
I have to go to work I hate, because…
Because?
It comes up to the question that some of us know well, and have heard quite a few times. What is important?
Tell me.
That’s why I feel there’s no point of me going to work somewhere I don’t want to. There is no “must’s” or “have to’s”. Eventually some those must might lead to the point where I have choose do I want to stay alive or not, I admit, but that’s the only must and have to. I have to die.
All this includes you and everybody here. We don’t really have to. We have a choice. and making choice we affect.
We are pressured to make certain kind of choices and to live certain kinds of lives. We are pressured to agree on “what is important”. Do we agree? Is economical wealth really important? Is fashion really important? Is art really important? Is make more money now really important? Is taking care of those who cannot take care of them selves really important? What kind of society we want to live in?
What on earth is economical wealth if we cannot take care of our elderly, of our sick and of our children. Go on buy the new BMW and put your mother to sickhouse where there is only one nurse versus 5 patient, and your BMW costs more than that nurses three year salary. What is important?
All these catastrophes we earn.
We will extinct, and there’s no heaven nor hell for us and it’s ok.
Everything’s the same.